Playing Catch up

Hey, Hi, Hello. I’m just going to go ahead and say it- this last month has been extremely hard. It’s been something I’ve had a really hard time talking about so I’m just going to go ahead and say it. We had to rehome Oscar.

Never in a million years did I think I would ever type that sentence. It happened two weeks ago and I’m still in shock. A month ago, he bit Alex multiple times when we were trying to take him outside. He had been really testing us in the weeks prior to that- peeing on our bed, growling at me and then when he bit Alex we knew we had to do something. If it was just Alex and I to think about we would have somehow figured out something to do but with a baby on the way I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened to our son. This was not an easy decision. I spent days crying and holding Oscar before the day finally came to give him away. In a word, I’m devastated. Oscar was my baby. I saved him three years ago from a terrible shelter but it always kind of felt like he saved me. It pains me that my son will grow up without him, after months of dreaming what the two of them would be like together. I’m trying my best to be strong, hold myself together but it definitely hasn’t been easy.

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Oscar, I will miss you and love you always.

Aside from that, I am now 34 weeks along. I can’t even believe it. We have been so busy, with birthing classes, hospital tours, doctors appointments and trying to get last minute details ready for the baby. We took a 4 weeks birthing class that ended this last week which we found really helpful. There is never a way to fully prepare for birth but its nice having useful information that at least makes me feel like I have some control over the situation. Some being the operative word.

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My doctors appointments have been going extremely well and baby is perfect. I can’t believe how close we are! He kicks like crazy and it’s been so fun for Alex and I to feel and watch. It’s going to be so weird when he is here and I can’t feel him kicking me anymore.

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Is there anything better than baby laundry? I feel like I’m up to my ears in it but I definitely don’t mind. Each piece is somehow more adorable than the last. We are still trying to decide on a coming home outfit, but I have some ideas!

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My sister and I entered a Instagram contest a few weeks ago and to my total surprise- we won! I was given a giftcard to Baby JIves, which is a company that makes these extremely dreamy and amazing mobiles. I honestly knew I wanted one of these before I was even pregnant so I was so excited to win! We have been working on baby’s space and plan to share pictures soon!

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Here’s a picture of the two of us one night after birthing class. I can’t express how lucky I am to be going through all things pregnancy related with this guy. He is at every single one of my doctors appointments, asks questions, practices breathing techniques with me(better than me!?), massages my back, and is just generally the best possible person to have around. He has been my rock when things have gotten hard and I can’t say enough good things about him.  I seriously can’t wait to see him be a day.

So, that’s been our month. Definitely a whirlwind. I will try to check in on here more in the upcoming weeks. This belly is definitely becoming a sight to see!

Bits & Pieces

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As of today I am officially 29 weeks along! 29 weeks! So crazy to me. The top picture is from 27 weeks and below is 28. So far, so good! I had my glucose test last week and everything came back fine! I was nervous about the test after all the horror stories but it honestly wasn’t that bad.

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Some things for baby boy. The trains were Alex’s when he was a baby and I can’t express how excited I am that Alex’s mom passed them down to us.

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This incredible book was given to us by Alex’s dad at the shower and I love it! The illustrations are fantastic and the story is so sweet. Plus, the lady who writes them lives in Portland! I plan to buy all her books books before baby comes I know they will easily be well loved. (Here is the authors books on Amazon, this book in particular is I’d Know You Anywhere, My Love)

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This was from Ikea this weekend when we bought our crib.(!!!) We haven’t put it together yet but I’m so excited to get everything set up!

And to wrap this up, here is some pictures from fall around here.

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Can’t. Get. Enough.

Our Baby Shower

Last week we flew to Texas for our baby shower! Since most of Alex’s family lives in Houston, we decided to just have the shower there for convenience. My sister also lives in Houston so it just seemed like the best plan. We flew in on Wednesday and the shower was Saturday so it was nice to have some extra time to spend with family.

The shower seemed like the perfect opportunity to fly back to Texas one last time before the baby comes. So crazy to think that next time we go our sweet boy will be with us!

We had the shower at a restaurant in Houston and it was awesome! My mom did all the planning and with help from my oldest sister on decorations they were able to make a beautiful and perfect day. I’m very thankful for all that was done for the day to be a success!

Our nursery theme is moon and stars so my mom decided to incorporate those details into the shower as well and it was better than I imagined. I didn’t take any pictures that day, but thankfully plenty of other people did!

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The cake and cupcakes were homemade by my little sister and they were SO GOOD. I wish I had some now!


A very close family friend, my big sisters mom, made all the favors bags and shipped them to Texas from New Jersey. I love that there was a Moon Pie and a Star Crunch in each bag. They were so perfect and cute!


My dad(right) and my stepdad holding up the “guest book” that was hand painted for us by my big sister’s boyfriend, Stephen. It was extra special considering we also did the fingerprint guest book for our wedding. So excited to find somewhere to hang this! I was also really thankful my dad was able to fly in from New Jersey for the shower. It was really awesome having him there!


My mom also had baby boy his own suitcase made! This picture doesn’t even do it justice. It’s absolutely beautiful! Plus it really came in handy when trying to get all the shower gifts home!

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Opening gifts. My dad made sure he is fully prepared to be an Eagles fan! No objections here!

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A very silly photo of myself, but guys, LOOK at that handsome man sitting next to me! I am so excited to have a mini version of that in just a few months. My heart might burst!


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We played a lot of shower games and this one was something like “who could look the most pregnant” I win by a landslide, right?


This is one of my favorite pictures taken. Me and my bridesmaids! Best friends I could possibly ask for and I’m so lucky there were all able to be there!

The day really could not have been more perfect! I’m so thankful to have had such a beautiful shower and also really glad Alex and I could celebrate with all our family in Texas. The amount of love for the baby already is so overwhelming and we are so thankful for the people we have around us!

Life Lately

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I’m sure this has been said a million times but I can’t believe September is already half over. We still have some pretty hot days but the leaves are starting to change and there is FINALLY rain in our forecast so I think it will start feeling like fall in no time. This will be the last “new” season for us in our new home. It’s so crazy to think that we have almost been here a year. I remember like it was yesterday being handed our keys, walking through the door for the first time and both running to our windows completely in disbelief that this is where we live and this was our amazing view.  I still sometimes look out those windows feeling that exact same way.


With September chugging right along it puts us closer and closer to our due date. Today I am exactly six months. Six months! I am so happy to be here at six months. So thankful for a healthy pregnancy and amazed at what my body is doing right now. I love when I’m doing something and not really paying attention to my body and then he moves. And it is almost as if the world has stopped. I get to focus in on these little feelings, learning his elbows and little toes and feeling the roundness of his back shifting under my own roundness while we share this space together. And no matter what is going on or where I am it feels like its just us. It is definitely my new favorite feeling.

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This picture is from last week at 23 weeks.

I also love when it is late and quiet and I grab Alex’s hand and rest it right where I’m feeling the most kicks. “Oh, I feel him! Right under this finger! How cool.” It’s such an incredible thing, just the three of us learning each others movements and the baby learning our voices.

I guess I have reached the “nesting” stage as they call it. My apartment is always spotless and I’m constantly looking for things to do/clean.  We’ve been doing some shopping for baby lately and it has been so fun. His clothes pile is slowing growing and my laundry piles are becoming increasingly more cute. We also got a stroller. The most beautiful, incredible, safe stroller and I am head over heels in love with this thing, seriously. Half of my time is spent just giddily pushing it around the living room imagining sweet baby boy inside.

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Of course someone had to try it out. He lasted maybe two minutes before jumping out. Oh well. If you need me I’ll be here staring at my stroller for the next four months. Crazy how sometimes that seems so close and sometimes so far away! I’m sure it will be sneaking up on us before we know it!

My Current Obsession

Like every woman expecting a new baby there is one thing I never stop thinking about – baby clothes. I look at them in every store, check out all the shops online, even perusing Etsy for handmade, awesome finds. But the same things kept occurring to me in almost everywhere I looked. Baby clothes are expensive. And that doesn’t make sense! You seriously are buying an outfit the baby can wear a handful of times over a couple of months. Plus in the beginning they’re just covered in spit up, food and much worse.

So I decided to try to dig a little deeper. Alex and I tried out a local Goodwill and although I found an awesome collection of books, I was only able to leave with one outfit and it was the only 0-3 month outfit they even had. But it was only two dollars and so so cute and well made, that the spark was lit and I kept searching.

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This is the sleeper I got from Goodwill, so cute!

When I got home I decided to google “online consignment shop baby clothes” and after going through a few websites I came across Moxie Jean and fell. in. love.

The prices are fantastic and most of the clothes are Baby Gap, Carters, The Children’s place, etc. And not only do they have great baby clothes, they also have clothes all the way up to 13-14 years old. So I found a few things I loved, received a 10 dollar off coupon code and spent 22 dollars. On five things! I placed my order and it was seriously sitting at my door in four days. That’s faster shipping than most big companies. When I opened the package I was more than pleased. Everything looked exactly like the pictures, was in excellent quality and even smelled good. Here is what I got:

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This great fleece lined sweater from The Children’s Place. Only 10 dollars and in great shape!

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When I saw these OshKosh overalls with tiedye onesie included on sale for only 3 dollars I couldn’t pass them up!

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This extremely soft Calvin Klein sleeper for only 7 dollars!

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And my favorite- Baby Gap hooded jacket. Since baby boy will be born in January we wanted to get him a pretty heavy jacket. This one is so thick and fleece lined. Plus the hood detaches, which I love. Plus this only cost me 12 dollars. Worth it!

The website updates their inventory every Monday and Thursday. I already have another order waiting to be placed, seriously I’m addicted!

If you click this link you will receive 10 dollars off any order of 20 dollars or more. I am in no way being paid to mention this website, or share that link(anyone can share it, it is on their main page, I just copied the link) I just know a good deal when I see one and couldn’t help but rave about the great deals I found!

Weekend at the Beach!

This past weekend, we were invited by some co-workers of Alex’s to spend the night in Lincoln City. Since moving here we haven’t had a chance to check out the beach yet so I was all over it. Growing up in New Jersey we spent a lot of time at the “shore”.  Some of my best childhood memories were spend on a beach, enjoying the sun and building awesome sand castles with my sister.

So, Saturday morning we dropped Oscar off at a dog-sitter, and we were on our way! We drove down with two of Alex’s coworkers and it took about an hour to get there. It was really awesome to see the countryside again and Oregon does not disappoint. I saw so many “pick your own flowers” farms and I can’t wait to make another trip where I can stop and get some!  The temperature also dropped about 20 degrees by the time we got to the ocean and it felt so good. It’s been about 90 consistently in the city so cooler weather was definitely welcomed. Although it wasn’t exactly perfect weather to actually get in the ocean.

The house that was rented was so beautiful. Alex’s co worker was celebrating his wife’s birthday and we were lucky enough to join in on the celebration.

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I loved all the natural wood. Plus we were only a very short walk from the beach!

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It was very foggy on Saturday and so cold! The guys wanted to make a trench(?) so we spent a couple of hours working on that.

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Here they are in the finished project!

That night we grilled steaks and corn on the cob. So so good! We played a couple of games then called it a night. The next day the weather was far more appropriate for beach going.

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Bump at 20 weeks!




There is just something about the beach that is so good for the soul. It is easily my favorite place in the world and I’m so glad we were able to spend a couple of days with good company! Thank you again to our friends for inviting us down, we had an amazing time!

Oh, and here is a bonus picture that the dog sitter sent me.

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Yep, that’s dog you guys. Isn’t he so well behaved?

Celebrating Alex’s Birthday

Things were a little bit more low key this year seeing as it was just Alex and I for his Birthday but we made the most of it! We spent the weekend doing all his favorite things. We started by going to Ground Kontrol(a local arcade and bar, pretty much his dream place, right?) and mostly played the pinball machines. This was my first time there and I have to say it was pretty awesome!  They had cheap food, and a 3 dollar amazing root beer float. They also had one of Alex’s favorite beer and I think a pint was 3 dollars as well.

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They had a really great selection of games as well, but those never seemed to stay open for long. They had Mario Kart and there was someone playing with people waiting every time we went to look. I definitely want to go back and try that out!

We also had dinner at Alex’s favorite place to eat, Boxer Ramen. And I’ll admit, the food is really really good.

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This is the Spicy Pork Miso. My favorite!




Then on Monday(his actually birthday) we celebrated with burgers at our favorite local burger place, Dick’s Burgers. This is seriously one of the best burgers I have ever eaten. Plus they pride themselves on offering local 100% grass fed beef and making the healthiest choice. We probably eat here at least two times a month. Plus their desserts and milkshakes are incredible. Can’t go wrong! This is where I would share a picture, but I always start eating the second my food comes because it is so good. Oops.

When we got home we had cake, dark chocolate with cream cheese frosting.



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^ Alex started to worry he was going to set off the smoke alarm which, as you can see, also worried Oscar. But then Oscar was just ready for some cake. Seriously laughed until I cried at this pictures.



Here’s to you, Alex. Happy 27th Birthday! I love you dearly.



And here is a bonus picture.


Oscar deep in strategy.


Baby C is a…




BOY! A perfect healthy little Alex.

I am SO EXCITED. I’ve always wanted a boy, pockets full of rocks, digging in the dirt, train sets, the whole thing! I grew up with just my sisters and always wished I had had an older brother. When I first got pregnant, I dreamed it was a boy, and everyone thought girl. I didn’t know what to think when we went in for the ultrasound  and even started to believe everyone else that it was a girl. But there he was, my sweet son.

Everything also went great with the ultrasound which I have been nervous about for months! I’m so happy baby C is healthy and growing. I got a lot of pictures of him and I can’t stop looking at them! His little hands and lips, his perfect head, the way his heart was beating so fast.  It was so surreal watching him kick around on screen. Our technician was new to this location so she was still figuring out the machine so our appointment ended up lasting two hours! We were in heaven!

January has been seeming so far away but now that we know its a boy and that we’re half way through my pregnancy its all feeling very real. We have a name picked out and I love being able to call him by it now. So surreal!

A SON, I am in heaven. :)

19 weeks!


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As of yesterday I am officially 19 weeks! Crazy that we are almost halfway there! We’re having our 20 week ultrasound soon and I’m really excited but can’t help but also feel worried. It’s the ultrasound where they check out all the baby’s features, organs and brain function. I’m definitely staying optimistic but sometimes those bad thoughts creep up. We’ve only had one ultrasound so far at eight weeks when the baby just looked like a bean so I’m ecstatic to be able to see all the baby’s features. The little hands and feet and that sweet sweet face, I can’t wait!

I finally invested in some maternity jeans and I am in heaven! I had been doing the hair tie trick for far longer than I should have.  I found the jeans at Old Navy and they are too awesome.

It’s been crazy to catch my reflection in the mirror and see this bump looking back at me. I’ve also been feeling really good! Nauseous very rarely which is awesome after the 1st trimester. I am constantly craving jalapenos and have seriously just been eating them out of the jar. The soft pretzel craving is definitely still there too. I’m also trying really hard to get my veggies in. Since I got pregnant I’ve been totally turned off of them. I try to just add them into things where I can’t really taste them or fight my way through some veggie juice. Fruit cravings are definitely strong so at least that’s something, right?

Can’t wait to share our pictures and gender next week!! So ready!

I Married a Gamer

I married a man who once made an entire home star runner video series using toys and a very good imitation accent for all the characters. A man who has insanely high levels on his diablo and Starcraft game. A man who has more games on his phone than I even knew existed. A man who sometimes spends his lunch break at a local arcade(eating a grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwich) and always stares longingly at the ones in the mall.
This has always perplexed and amused me over the years. I’m not a gamer. Sure, Mario kart is my jam but I’ve never been a consistent player of a game. I’ll download one on my phone, likely one Alex has talked me into playing, play with him for a week or two and then never open that app again. It’s a vicious circle.

Men always get a bad rap. It’s childish to play games. It means they’re not ready to grow up or be a man. They’re too stuck in a fantasy world to enjoy what’s really going on around them. This made me nervous when Alex and I first got together. Over the years everyone would say he would grow out of it and it couldn’t last. He would get a fancy job and just be so busy he couldn’t even think of games. No dice. It never dulled or faded. I started getting worried, is this okay? Are we going to be sixty and still trying to see how far we can go on a zombies map?
But then something shifted. I started to see a side of it that wasn’t clear to me all this time. You know that look in a child’s face when you give them something they’ve always wanted and they just light up? Somewhere we lose that over the years and I don’t know why because it seems so detrimental to happiness. My husband still has it.

This may seem like a cooky analogy and I apologize if I seem like a crazy person but I love that my husband plays games. He has this light and easy side of him that I don’t have and I think will be crucial to raising our child. He’s never going to be too busy to throw a ball around in the backyard. Never going to be annoyed by a child countlessly asking him to tell him a story he has to vividly make up with his imagination. Never going to mind playing on the floor with them for hours with building blocks or Legos or anything else you can think of. Because this is an area he strives in, among countless others. He still has that glow. That wonder and excitement from something as small as playing a game.
I realize not all men who play video games share in what I see in my husband but that’s okay. His playing shows me how creative and imaginative he his. How he can spend hours at something and never tire shows such stamina I lose somewhere down the line. I love knowing that this child is coming into the world where I know their father will always listen, always play, always laugh and play games and have fun! Fun, something so very important that seems to get pushed to the sidelines now a days and honestly it is what I want to be the in the forefront of raising this child. And with Alex by my side, this will be more than easy. :)